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Sunday, December 11, 2011

movie

watched 2 downloaded movies...Love You You and Don't Go Breaking My Heart(单身男女).
both were thumbs up..in fact all the fingers up....seriously...worth watching...
For the Love You You...it was so so so extremely touching that I cried......(till now my eyes still bengkak)
For Don't go breaking my heart..starring by gu tin lok and daniel wu whose handsomeness is non-comparable! >.< Both of them put so much effort to win their lover's heart..thought of one suitable idiom : faint heart never won fair lady.....and i also think that the female actor looks like Gigi Leong...~~

I have no idea which movie to download now....guess I shall continue with my PA study..fml .____.


Saturday, December 10, 2011

Krappy thought~~

What's a woman's asset?? erm, hurm, urm.....
yes, I believe the answer you thought of, is the one and only answer we can get..

There are many many many nickname awarded to those flat-chested girl: biscuit, washing board, aeroplane railway(the most common one), bamboo (for tall and flat) lols~ D:
com'on la..give them a break .___.

Should they gifted with this shape, they have to accept it..But 90% won't accept, until they grow and realize that this is such a drawback for them..they found out the so call 'advantages' of having nice assets , look nicer in clothing, perhaps more attention-grabbing...

On the other hand, there are ways and means to improve your physical look.One of it is through surgery:.ya,fastest in effect but riskiest way as well..
I practically watched a video on breast enlargement. From the beginning of marking on the breasts, till the surgeon sealed them back..silicone, is the most crucial material they normally add inside =.= yucks~

I remembered during form5, my bio tutor mentioned that, small is better than nothing..which means, if u undergo surgery, and at last you got to 'chop off' one of it(or maybe both) due to some side effect from the
surgery..HA! that moment is the moment you can't describe with words...you left with NOTHING ~~
nothing nothing..i've got nothing nothing~(the script) lolz..

If you got penny, opt for genetic modification where geneticist will make use of the mRNA at the gene that responsible for breasts' size, inserted into a circular plasmid come from bacteria, then act as a vector to reach into ur body..bio knowledge..sounds easy huh? *this question that been targeted did not come out in essay!* GRRRR~!!

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Day#6

Due to technical problem..the post will jump from Day1 to Day6 (probably more than 6 days) ...

What done is done ...One more paper to go and I shall get back my freedom...

Did my maths paper2 in illness...erm..maths paper, were kinda disappointing..guess I couldn't get an A- for that,,needless to say A.....*just pray hard that it won't drag my pointer till very low* else, whatever I've got for other subjects are just fruitless..........

Sick sick sick .___. should I thank God that I only ill when the exam almost over? instead of in the middle of the battle..I would die without fighting man =|

Anyway...wanted to watch ALVIN sooo badly!!!! Rar-rar-aah-aah-aah-roma-romama-gaga-uhlala..want your bad romance...! who will be my companion at last? God knows =|

That's all for now....so lazy to type any more....so long ~~

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Genetics,embryology,mutation

@_____@
oh well...basically I spent my day by reading biology for upcoming exam...
tons of facts and process and mechanisms to be stuffed into my tiny cute brain...
but, i rather do memorizing than calculating :p ;< am sucks in calculation :O born that way ~~
Hmm...am reading formation of embryo after fertilization...this kept on making me go gg....blastula la, blastocyst la, trophoblast la...ish....but, you, me, us were formed through this ways...=O

what topic should i study next? mutation i guess >.<

Monday, November 21, 2011

haiz

ish...i'm sucks in picking clothes that really suit me =.=
went to jusco just now....bought a 'dress'...i don't know, i think it's kinda okay,..so i bought it loh...
Hmm...a little bit short..ya..but, almost the length with the red dress I have too...acceptable, still...lol :p
It might accentuate if i make up.and some noticeable hand muscles..ish..good thing? or no....lol D:
and ya..me is flat =.= T.T



STPM #Day1#

21st November 2011 is the first day of Sijil Tinggi Pelajaran Malaysia,aka the second toughest exam in ASia~
It kick started with the PENGAJIAM PAPER 2 where it's the kind of paper that you will hold your pen for 180 minutes = ="

Needless to mention about the questions..kinda disappointing anyway =;(

hurm...anyway..gotta put that disappointment aside and ready for next war! CHEM&BIO on the SAME DAY!
;< *CURSE THE PERSON WHO SET THAT SCHEDULE!*!@#$%

All The Best people .......

Friday, November 4, 2011

dreams

I had many weird dreams recently...some were and some were just too funny....
the bad one, was too menial to be raised up..as it made my heart ache everytime i recalled it....
the awkward/funny one, just happened last night...I swear this is just too what-the-hell...I dreamt that I was in a relationship with someone else, er, a teacher..LOL ..i giggled everytime i thought of it...damn noob! haha..

Do u 100% put down the facts that u actually confessed to someone u liked before?
unusual feeling arouse when he brought out some of the memories...
This carved out an issue with  my bf jz now....he's jealous...:)

Haiz..am somehow allergic to seafood it seems...now, 3 beans(which i cant call it pimple) remain on my face..grr...it jz bring down my confidence...plus my face's like dehydrated, like snake changing its skin...if u know what i mean...:(

super duper sleepy...since monday i was hoping the arrival of weekend....
night folks......

Saturday, October 29, 2011

shOp till drOp

yeah yeah~ happy~ lol... shopped after so long~~
Afternoon mum suddenly announced that some shops in jusco are having awesome sale, main reason is they wanted to clear the stocks...they are going to "migrate" to some other places..in short, 'zap lap' lol -.-'

So So, without second thought (of course Im super excited), I said that let's go have a look later XD and we did.
My first aim was shoes...maybe 'were' :p
I always wanted a platform heels (not the same with what you googled, just in case :p )
At last, I bought one of it and a some sort of sport shoes.lol..converse -like? haha :D
Sad that mum couldnt manage to find one pair as her feet are small and flesh-less, she's too thin x.x

Thennnn, We went to Watson.
We grabbed stuff,picked whatever we wanted, then when foot the bill, TA-DA ! RM122..LOL
I've never ever spent this much in watson! (My dad paid the bill though :p)

erm erm, next I saw a weighing machine, and again I put 2 rm0.20 --ding ding ding~ I was 1xx cm , 4x kg ...
completely different with what I measured few days ago! well, i satisfied with the weight this time, but NOT THE HEIGHT man! that means I've grew shorter=.=" conclusion, I want that height and this weight..LOL
if you know what exactly am saying~~ =X

Stomach already making noise because we didnt take our dinner before coming here (except my dad)..so, everyone satisfied and time to go home,..else, dad's gonna work OT ..HAHA.. Oh, my bro had his stuff too: 2 tee from tropicana life, and one pair of admiral shoes  -,-

ME IS HAPPY!! can't wait to try on that so call heels ^.^o
*sh*t no place to put them..HOW?! lol

<3 <3 Hmm~ how tall will I become? bluek~

                                                                         ops~ saw my size?

Saturday, October 15, 2011

15 Oct

So long Week, I'm so over you...I'm in love with your brother..Weekend XD

Yeahh,,It;s weekend people ~.~
So what? lol..Usual routine..tuition in the morning >.<"

I irritated Sean when he asked me question and I acted slumber i think..
Hmm...He showed he dissatisfaction by keeping quiet,,,but questioned me why did i acted this way everytime he aske me question.. I didnt answered him well too.. =(

actually I'm on my way to ampang point to buy a wrist watch for myself...
Can't bear with the quietness and coldness..I approached him first ..
berbaik balik....

Then..after having roti canaiss, it's time to go back...
I was suppose to stop by ampang park station but ended up I went to KLCC....
Something tells me i need to do something to repair our relationship eventhough it's no big deal.....

So, I went there...decided to buy him chocolate as he loves it more than everything ..exclude me? XD
The LRT has some technical problem-.-

anyhow.. I drove to his place~~
I just want to see his bright smile again.....

and hor..I think I'm kinda into short denim skirt :p
I went to check them out in amp point...then when passed by a shop in klcc,was attracted by one that is wore by the 'model' (i forgot what is it called)-.-
too bad,  the price..hmm......lol...anyhow..snap a photo ..shhh.......
marshmallow milk coffee~~~

errr nice?? hehe

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Ah Swer's 19

It's my bestie's birthday today!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWER!! ^^
Me and soo yee are going to celebrate her bday just by having a dinner at Little Taiwan in KLCC...
we spent about 1 and a half hour there chatting,planning for what to do after exam,laughed together...it's really relaxing and it again strengthen our friendship bonds. :)
Just can;t wait for exam to finish and have our day being turn upside down! >.<

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Indecisive

Indecisive kills.......
In terms of relationship, it is not as easy as making columns, writing pro's and con's, then value which has more point and go accord with it...
It is when you are at the pro's column, you think of the con's ; at con's ,you think of the pro's....
in short, you cannot make decision..you neither want to let go nor maintain.....
And again, I've made a firm decision-to get together again :)
I will put down all the shortcomisus of him..no one can be perfect,flawless....:)
I couldn't remember how many times have I told myself during cold war that this have to be the last war between us, no more hatred,belief more..but, the turn out always break my heart.....
I don't say I couldn't live without him..but he has already became part of my life, my soul...without him, I am like an unsolved puzzle,incomplete..can never know the final picture,the ending it brings...
It will be a brand new day tomorrow...be tough, be positive, be yourself......

Monday, September 26, 2011

不哭

浓浓的眉毛,有时双有时单眼皮的眼睛,不会很高可是恰好的鼻梁,不会干算是小的嘴巴。。
今天只能侧面地,无意地瞄了你。。。

我们在一起做过的事实在太多了。。拥有太多共同点。因为这些共同点连写文章也会写出同样的要点。。。

在班要把你当透明,很难且难受。。
今天只跟你说了声谢谢。。
我们,变陌生人了么?

试问,有多少人在分开以后,可以继续当朋友?不用说朋友,讲话的机会有吗?。。。

不是我自恋,我真的认为我是一个很好的女朋友。。好在哪里呢,就是肯为某某付出很多。。

以为今天可以度过在一起的第五个月。。。。梦里就有可能。。。。

现在我只想读好书考好成绩。。至于之间的过程会有什么变化,我不知道。。。。

Sunday, September 25, 2011

will you be this boyfriend?

If only everyone could see
this and understand it.
When she stares at your
mouth
-Kiss her
When she pushes you or
hits you like a dummy
cause she thinks shes
stronger than you
-Grab her and don't let go
When she starts cursing
at you trying to act all
tough
-Kiss her and tell her you
love her
When she's quiet
-Ask her whats wrong
When she ignores you
-Give her your attention
When she pulls away
-Pull her back
When you see her at her
worst
-Tell her she's beautiful
When you see her start
crying
-Just hold her and don't
say a word
When you see her walking
-Sneak up and hug her
waist from behind
When she's scared
-Protect her
When she steals your
favorite hoodie
-Let her keep it and sleep
with it for a night
When she teases you
-Tease her back and make
her laugh
When she doesn't answer
for a long time
-Reassure her that
everything is okay
When she looks at you
with doubt
-Back yourself up
When she says that she
loves you
-she really does more than
you can understand
When she grabs at your
hands
-Hold her's and play with
her fingers
When she bumps into you
-Bump into her back and
make her laugh
When she tells you a
secret
-Keep it safe and untold
When she looks at you in
your eyes
-dont look away until she
does
When she says it's over
-she still wants you to be
hers
When she reposts this
bulletin
-she wants you to read it
- Stay on the phone with
her even if she's not
saying anything
- When she's mad hug her
tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok
don't believe it, talk with
her because 10 yrs later
she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on
her birthday to tell her
you love her
- Treat her like she's all
that matters to you
- Stay up all night with her
when she's sick
- Watch her favorite
movie with her or her
favorite show even if you
think it's stupid
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your
clothes
-When she's bored and
sad, hang out with her
-Let her know she's
important.
- Kiss her in the pouring
rain
- When she runs up to you
crying, the first thing you
say is:
"Whose ass am i
kicking,BABY?"



If only he could read this . . . 

。为什么这爱总是拼凑不起来。

“分开“这两个字眼,
又出现了。

两天前的我们,无言相对。
安静得陌生。。

虽然分开是你先提出,可是做决定的人竟是我。
我变成坏人了吗?
呵~

我真的不知道到底想怎样!
我让你又爱又恨,
你也一样!
我很想弄清楚,我们之间的感觉,是怎样的。。
而我所作的决定,对么?

不曾真正走过爱情路的我,很迷惑。
身边的伴侣,是因为爱而在一起,还是只是一时的错觉?
想占有你,因为和你在一起真的很难得;有时想放弃,因为你的忽冷,令我觉得迷惑和猜疑。

很想与你走在路上时,不时对望,有说笑。。
很想在情人节,纪念日时继续送你礼物,
话说回来,我还没收到你的花。。。。

怎么办怎么办怎么办!!
要做决定时不断地想,作了决定后还是在想!
我到底顾虑着什么?还是我舍不得什么?

现在的我,有想挽回的念头。
可是,
接下来的日子,该怎样相对?
亲密还会比陌生多吗?
我们要怎样才能再靠近一点。。。

先提出分手的人,是不是一定不会落泪?挣扎较少?不会后悔?

如果有如果,我该怎么好好利用这如果。。。


Wednesday, September 21, 2011

wednes the day ~.~

*shivering* what a cold evening >.<

HOw was my day today? Hmm..practically, it's quite stressful but playful..
Early in the morning I sat for some minor Bio test where teacher will include it as part of the trial exam-.-
I think she's running out of question..recycled the question and asked again the same linked gene question.How boringggg ;< I was hoping some nervous system or immunity question instead..

*wow so bitter! *biting cucumber* >.<

Going quite well with my darling :p no cold war,so far -.- I love him more as day goes by...*missing him* :(

Went back home, bathed and ready to watch Johnny English 1..hilarious rowan atkinson -,-
my dad was teasing: mr bean can speak de mie? >.<

Hmm, gonna watch HK drama in another err 40 minutes....then, I hope I'll stick my arse on the chair flipping through maths....I got a SHITTY result for maths!! ***k! so far, it's the SHITTIEST as I haven't know my chem marks...Am so dead! how do I get 4.0 in real exam????????????? I know I need to put more effort on that subject..I promise I'll try my best, but, not every single question I am able to tackle..aite??
 *emo*

Monday, September 19, 2011

miserably x.x

God knows what happen to me today during muet speaking test..
I can barely utter a complete sentence..
the topic was damn easy but, somewhere went wrong with me,I failed to do my very best, and i surely know that
disappointment? hell yeah..frustration,more..
perhaps not speaking the language in daily life does harm me alot..it affect my fluency,confidence..
taskA I only managed to get 10m for each category..10..ftw t('.'t)
I did better during task B...but so what? that's not gonna bring me any further to whatever band i''ll get.
I just hope that this will not greatly affect my overall performance in order to determine which actual band I am.
pray hard I can do better in the real test.
teacher said she expected more from me..glad to hear that as it means I do have the ability;but sorry to say I wasn't in the right mode then,at least for today..

After my group, I sat down and wrote an essay pertaining to the topic being discussed just now..
I can write,but when come to oratorical skill, I stammer...

Sometimes I wonder, why am I not born from a family who speak well in english especially...
therefore, I aimed to boom my future offspring with english first,mandarin 2nd..hohoho= ="

Saturday, September 10, 2011

remuk jantungku~

addicted to the songs by Geisha, an Indonesian singer x)
#1 cinta&benci


#2 Tak pernah ada

#3 remuk jantungku

#4 pilihan hatiku


Wednesday, September 7, 2011

come on~~

Yeahhh~!
It's already the 4th day of my trial exam ._.

Papers..were quite moderate..I can actually score if I put my heart&soul..but, did I ? :D
tomorrow is Biology._. another stressful subject..
Felt diffident when answering PA paper just now..
The only section which I think I can score is drawing the line graph -.-
Essays topic were kinda nuub =.=
anyway,that was afternoon's story..

Time to get my butt stick on the chair and flip open my bio books :(
hope the question are not too kek sau :p

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

黑眼圈 o_o

天呐!从来没有只睡了两个小时的觉!
而且是从六点到八点..过后再赖床~

从三点到六点耳朵塞着耳机,听电台..
那时播的歌非常好听勒!呵呵~~
梁静茹的分手快乐;飞儿乐团的泪光闪烁;张智成的末日之恋;爱在记忆中找你;BoysLikeGirls tow is better than one;nicki minaj remix; 等等~~

还有一个睡不着的原因是有蚊子!!啊!在我耳边嗡嗡叫! ;<
脚和手臂多了几粒..呜呜...
终于,六点时有倦意了....慢慢入眠~~~


早上起来,收到他的信息..说我又误会他前晚的信息了..
在收到他晚上的信息后,我打了一篇八封的信息给他....认为这次..结束了...
他问能不能来我家打扰....我有可能拒绝吗? 心里已经想死他了....加上又有那么多误会..应该见个面的...
所以今天下午,和他度过了... =)

不_开心,应该可以结束了.
这种情况,已不是第一次了...每次都以为不会有下次...可是是算不到的.....
所以,
好好珍惜目前在一起的时光吧..........

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

不_开心_第2天

早上,
一睁开眼睛,第一个想到的是他。。
其实是每一个早上。。
昨晚,
我没回复他的信息,
很累,不懂该怎样回复才好。。。
今早,还是妥协了下来,
不想,不要这样下去,发了个信息给他。

他气我没有很早通知他我做工的日子,
可能是他把这件事看得太重;或是我看得太轻。。

就这样,一直到下午,
事情好像有点好转。
不,我错了,是恶化才对。
他原本生气地感觉又回来了。。
他一只说算了,
算得我自己也不懂要怎样了。。

心里有多了一条刺。。

我答应,我不会这样就放弃。

Monday, August 29, 2011

不_开心

又来了。。

好像养成了这个习惯。。每天要不开心一下子,才对得起自己。。也许我爱上了这种感觉。

原因嘛:呵呵~不能和我的宝贝见面啊~

就我星期四有工做。他又刚好那天问要不要走走。。

我不能食言,答应了代替安娣做工好让她回家乡。。

就这样接下来的信息让我的心很滚。。我也不懂滚什么。。很气自己!

虽然我们读书时期一星期见六次,不过,不够的。也许这叫做缠绵吧~

天天信息,帮不了多少。反而,都不知对方会不会觉得厌烦。。

总之,很不开心就对了!o0o
我要喝酒!;<
啊啊啊啊! 运动去吧!!!!

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Wedding Atmosphere~~

Watched a tv programme where it is about a competition among wedding planners to plan the best wedding in order to become the outstanding one~
From the flow of programme, I can feel how stress,how heavy is the responsible as a wedding planner..
A wedding planner need to organize everything from zero to 100 >.< starting from accompany the couple to buy wedding rings and gowns, choose a perfect location for the wedding to be held, decoration, etc..
Just now there was 2 different type of wedding theme assigned to the 2 contestants- Hawaii and English style..
I personally would prefer the English style as it gives a more suitable atmosphere and romance feeling~ :p and elegance xD

I like to organize event, and when everything goes according to what i have scheduled, it just awesome~
what is my dream wedding like? Hmm..I can't tell precisely now(of course :p) but, for sure, the groom must not run away on that day..LOL





Saturday, August 27, 2011

4th Month Anniversary n.n

This is our first time celebrating special occasion with each other close to side~
On friday night, after my tuition, I headed to ampang lrt then he drove to Pandan Indah~
We have a stroll walk at the night market there,bought some mouth-watering snacks to fill our stomach~
Our real spot is a cafe name Dolphin~
yea, the cafe's doing promotion for BEER..calrsberg..5 bottles for rm29.90~
we ordered that + a large fries :P
I still remember vividly that, on Sean's last birthday, we the whole gang drank beer too...perhaps that was my 1st time to have whole bottle into my stomach, I became @@ and had my face like toe-may-toe ~ acted nonsensly and had given sean a slap(he still remember till now= =) ~ opsyyy :p <3

But last night was kinda different, I craved for more beer instead ~
I vomited, but that made me felt better and less headache ^^

We spent the night together,spoken a lot...
I suddenly felt that, he's just the one for me..though predicament happened before this, it's inevitable, aite?

P/S: I went home that night...lolz n.n




                                                                     Thumbs up ^^
I Love Him..heheheh <3





Thursday, August 18, 2011

Baptism of Fire

Baptism of fire, if I'm not mistaken, it means the very first time for a person to do something new..

So, for me, it's the wearing of contact lens..
I've never wear it before, didn't even dream of wearing it too...
I felt eerie seeing people placing the lens right ont0 the pupils..and I never thought things like this will happen on me, today ~~
Ya..I'm wearing contact lens now...it took me 15mins to muster ample courage just to wide open my eyes and put them in...
Pain in the eyes..ya..at the beginning...
i see things super clear now..........somehow i feel scary.freaky to see things this clear......
wish me luck ~.~

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

感性~

喜欢你的人:他会尽量说好话来讨好你,你也会觉得很开心。
爱你的人:他所说的话,都是关心你的,但是通常象是在命令。

喜欢你的人:他说他要给你最大的快乐。
爱你的人:他只能给你保证,你跟他在一起,他是最快乐的.. ..





爱情对男人而言,就像生命的插曲。
对女人而言,就是生命的主题曲。。。



Sunday, August 14, 2011

giggle~~


Two star crossed Lovers

A certain rich businessman had a beautiful daughter,

who fell in love with a guy who was a cleaner.

When the girl's father came to know about their love,

he did not like it at all, and so began to protest about it.

Now it happened that the two lovers decided to leave

their homes for a happy future. The girl's father started searching

for the two lovers but could not find them.

At last, he accepted their love and asked them to come

back home in a local newspaper.

Her father said "If you both come back I will allow

you to marry. I accept that you love each other truly."

So in this way, their love won and they returned home.

The couple went to town to shop for the wedding dress.

He was dressed in a white shirt that day. While he was crossing the

road to the other side to get some drinks for his fiancee, a car came and

hit him and he died on the spot. The girl lost her senses. It was only

after some time that she recovered from her shock. The funeral and

cremation was the very next day as he had died horribly.

Two nights later, the girl's mother had a dream in which she saw an

old lady. The old lady asked her mother to wash the

blood stains of the guy from her daughter's dress as soon

as possible. But her mother ignored the dream.

The next night her father had the same dream, he also ignored it.

Then when the girl had the same dream the next night,

she woke up in fear and told her mother about the dream. Her mother asked

her to wash the clothes which have blood stains immediately.

She washed the stains but some remained. Next night she again had the same

dream she again washed the stains but some still remained.

Next night she again had the same dream and this time the old lady

gave her a last warning to wash the blood stain, or else something

terrible will happen. This time the girl tried her best to wash the stains,

and the clothes nearly tore, but some stains still remained.

She was very tired.

In the late evening the same day while she was alone

at home, someone knocked the door. When she opened

the door she saw the same old lady in her dream standing at her door.

She got very scared and fainted.



The old lady woke her up... and gave her a blue

object, which shocked the girl. She asked "What is this...?"



The old lady replied...



"DYNAMO Liquid Soap..."

LOL

Thursday, July 28, 2011

fOOd Omg ^_^

My school had organised Hari Koko today..who cares what's actually Hari Koko..what really matters was we form sixes were going to sell refreshment today..
food that we were going to sell are: Satay,spaghetti,french fries and crab balls,Cakes and Float ^^
All of the department have gained its profit (thank God)..Me who incharged in Float has sold more than 100 cups of it.Evidence? we needed to use plastic bag for float order from students since the cups have finished ^^
Feel so sad because wasn't able to get a bite on satay :( crab balls were awesome!

Now, the important point is there were still many spaghetti leftover~the noodle especially...
since no one was taking them back..I da bao few packets to bring it back home, decided to make my own sauce instead.. :p

So then me and my brother having a great time in the kitchen.........^^
seriously it taste way awesome :p bluek!

                                                                    Chef Ivan
                                                           AWESOMEEEEE
                                                                 mY  dinner for your information..AHHA

Sunday, July 24, 2011

rOck the hOuseee!

Jet Lag by simple plan



In the ayer by flo rida~~ fuh!!

Sunday, July 17, 2011

诺言

下一次,带我去吃韩国餐。
下一次,带我去修眉毛。
下一次,一起上云顶。
下一次,一定带我去夜店。
下一次,你买TAKO给我吃。
下一次,我们一起去在Lot10的jackie chan's cafe。
下一次,我们去Jogoya。
下一次,我们一起去Langkawi。
下一次,我们一起做工。
所有所有的下一次,像泡沫,Pop一声,通通爆完了。。

机会

我是否该给彼此一个机会。。
给自己一个机会。。。
因为我还爱你。。。。
我还想听到那句话。。。。。

Thursday, July 14, 2011

就如此而已

终于亲手把礼物交到你手上了_不过_很遗憾_你给的第一个反应竟是一声'咳'_当时我好像听到心碎声_突然觉得自己做的一切_只是渺小的行为,不会得到你的珍惜_算了_反正一切我已预测了_毕竟你曾说过"不用再送我礼物了"_
放学了_同学向我问问题_没法二人世界_看到你很懊恼_背起书包_不说一声就去了补习_我_不知所措_
看来我拥有一个难忘的银色情人节_多谢你_
#cut wrist,hope for die#

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Red 0kra

0hmig0d...I just can't wait to witness the brand new appearance of the red 0kra! >.<
Strictly speaking, I've planted most of them since last April! O.O and only few of them survived >.<
It disappointed me, needless to say....
I've done my job, my routine- water them during recess or after school...
watching them transform from a quiet seed, into naughty young shoot and now, perhaps still at the teenager stage..
Pumpkin was one of my biggest despondency T.T It grew very very very well at the beginning..with big green leaves...maybe due to the 'munching' of ants on the leaves, they have R.I.P ...
anyhow, I put effort still onto okra, and chillies...
come on vege, GROW !! BE STRONG !!


Both on the sixth day of seedling ....
Life goes on....
To be continue.....

Wrapping's done!

wh00h00~~! I used err 1 and the half h0ur wrapping and writing a card... :p
I got to admit that I'm sucks in wrapping =.= ( but not square shape)

Hope he likes it...we'll know tomorrow ...

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

喉咙痒痒。。想唱歌。。

am in l0ve with this few s0ngs...pr0bably they suit me well.. :c



Hey stranger how you've been.....


                        h0w c0me when I reach 0ut my finger, it feels like m0re than distance between uS



因为我不知道下一辈子还是否能遇见你。。。


                                                                     害怕痛, 但又想牵起手。。

Parliament

For once in my life I get to step into parliament today..It was an excursion organised by Form Six teacher,for our PA subject,wish to enhance our knowledge on it besides to grow interest in each and everyone on this famous for its boringness subject~we departed from school around 11am and were asked to enter the dewan negara quietly..the place was damn cold and everyone of us were shivering.this worsen my difficulties in breathing.what the hell...
Those politician were already on their so call forum by the time we entered..it seems like many concerning issues were being discussed,asked for agreement and so forth..sooner,some of us lost interest in paying attention to their speech..from my observation,some politician was very serious when he talked,some paused a lot which is quite a nuisance for me,one female spoke like there is no full stop,faster than the bullet train it seems..sitting inside there for an hour made me cannot cough out loud.lol..Then,we were invited to visit the dewan rakyat.the one where display fights,shouting,even body language.everyone knows about it...unfortunately,the upcoming persidangan will only held in october..it disappointed us all..so bad haha...After the question and answer session,its time to bid farewell..not to forget to capture photos as memories..one of my friend was so not kiasi!he kept mentioning bersih=.=
About 130pm we started our journey back to school,which is like 15minutes distance?
Everyone seems tired.me plus a headache..why am I becoming so weak these few days??
the two of us didnt talk much too.i wonder why....
#when all you want is silent#

Trustworthy&Vinegar :O

Nahh..not talking about the vinegar you use in cooking..It's the one where every yellow creature in the world will experience..-jealousy :O

I did think we had a draw in this issue last night..

You weren't that glad to know I have added some particular guy in FB.
Said this action has shown my interest towards him..what the crap. He is your 'daughter's bf'!
I only have you in my eyes now, can't you see it??
I sensed that you are still unhappy because of this. can I ignore this?

Then, jealousy found me as well...
I saw you liked a picture of your ex, and you didn't even like mine..? that denim shorts is from you.!
I merely heard fragile heart broken into pieces, again. and I really want to scream the hell out at that moment! too over huh?? I don't think so.

#When you forget her, don't you dare to remember me #

Trustworthy...is something abstract that every couple cannot afford to lose...
and I lost it on 6 July...
I lied to you saying that I lost in the badminton match. and I weren't able to tell you the truth that night as I were sleeping super duper soundly since 730pm=.= or maybe I didn't realized, it can cause such a big matter between you and me. The next morning, you urged this issue up, again,.felt your isolation.
once again, I myself becoming more and more ignorant already. Not that the amount of love from me to you has decreased, it's because, I have no intention to lie to you..it was just because of my playful thought....and I apologized a lot.... you said you never trust every single word that come out from my mouth again,I was stunned.fell in despondency.....what else I have or how do I maintain this relationship......you tell me.........


worth it?

I didn't know that myself was actually a person that emphasize a lot on special occasion- valentine's day (every 14th of the month), our anniversary (of course)...

I put a lot of effort everytime I choose present to give it to you.whether to give you something relevant..appropriate...it cracks my head>.<

Like today, I spent almost an hour in choosing suitable present for you.for upcoming thursday..
I do not feel like it's a waste of money nor time. I just want to give..from the bottom of my heart....

Tell me, which girl never wish for a flower from her other half??
I don't mind,really don't mind for not receiving any present from you.but, I hope I can receive flowers from you,someday...before it's too late.....

I can't bake, not really good in craft, i'm just that sucks..I know something handmade is the most sincere gift ever, but, I just don't have he ability...sorry to say.....

Anyhow, wait for my upcoming present ba... even it might be something minor for you, but it meant a lot to me....and please don't ever tell me ' you don't have to give me anything during any occasion, it makes me feel guilty because I don't give anything in return'...again it slashed my heart that moment......

# you broke my heart, but I still love you with all my pieces #

The Edge of Happiness

This incident happened about 2 weeks ago..but I can still remember vividly..because it has slashed a piece of my heart's flesh...

That morning wasn't that perfect for me. My mood and behavior have changed 180degree that morning.I can still recalled the time: 6.55am..
As usual, I was waiting for his arrival^^ full of anticipation...
However, all my anticipation, excitement were broken into pieces, when he started to show his temper in front of me, due to his failure on searching his ruler =.=
At that moment, the usually patient me, wasn't that patient anymore. I mean, this time, I totally have expressed out my dissatisfaction and anger because of his way of treating me.! in short, I exploded., just like volcano..BOOM!~

I went down to the assembly, isolated myself from others. I really unintended to open my mouth to speak to anyone.I afraid I will, you know, !@#$@#!
Returned to class, until 3rd period of lesson. when I wanted to use ruler, SURPRISINGLY his ruler(may be his or may be not), lying in it! I'm like WTF??! Goddamn it! WHAT A PRANK??!
because the morning itself, he asked me whether or not I have it, accidentally or deliberately. I answered, NO, i don't have it.confidently..

Normal human behavior will be, return the stuff to its owner, right? so I did.
Unfortunately..this kind of added to his frustration. I wonder why..okay maybe I'm at fault too, but, come on, it's JUST-A-RULER! because of that almost-everyone-in-the-calss-is-using-the-same-ruler, you simply showed me your temper? HUH?

That Friday, we did not talk to each other...until.....

11pm..you messaged me...the two words that I wouldn't want to see the most, appeared,even it's just a question asked from you, not a sentence nor decision make by you. still, it hurts...
I, made a sentence showing agreement about your question.eventhough how reluctant I was.
Rolling myself on the bed,cried my heart out.,online to kill time..until 2am, then only I managed to close my eye lids...woke myself up at 530am, with triple eye lids..feeling emotionless..heartless..speechless..motionless..how I wish I need not to go to school on that saturday morning.....because I rather not seeing you, than only seeing your back......
I felt weak at that moment...breathless....

Trying to occupy myself with activities, after running for 5km, I played badminton. Hit the shuttlecock as hard as possible.(sorry for my innocent friend).. Till the moment you messaged asking whether or not to go tuition together..surprise? a little. sadness? increased. heart soften? a lot. Final decision? NO .
I replied am not going to tuition..the reason, I just want to be quiet for a minute..I want to learn to be independent, when you are no longer by my side ...

Sometimes, you planned to eat rice, but you can't resist the temptation of curry mee, so you opt for curry mee at last ..
I planned not to go tuition, but I can't resist myself after you texted me that you wish to see my presence at tuition centre..I went.......
embarrassment? never..because your calling, your face,moved my step towards you again....
This was definitely not some drama script..we bid farewell to each other after class..I walked towards east, you went north...
two hands in pockets, head down, tears rolling,decision playing in mind, heart mending every pieces  inside..
A quick turn 0ver, a fast walk, searching for you, found you easily in popular....approached you, hit your shoes.asked for forgiveness with regretful for agreeing to break up..you held me, but failed to carry my head up because I wouldnt want to let you see the ugly me with tears.....

We're fine..........

# What do I do when the one that broke my heart, is the only one that can fix it #

Monday, July 11, 2011

doomed

Blog's Dead Updaty :D

anyway..current favourite song ^^

Friday, May 6, 2011

sick

Actually I do not have the habit of writing when I'm feeling down..But guess I'll just spend a few minutes to confess everything,anything that made my day a cloudy one.

I just don't know why, can't guys out there(including mine) be a little straight forward?
I mean, when someone asked you a question, please reply her(obviously it's me) with at least a 'yes' or 'no'!
don't just sit at there and stare and mind started to think something negatively, something which you think your better half has no longer care about you, no longer love you or whatsoever..It definitely piss her(me again) off but since I have quite a high level of tolerance, I left you alone,for goodness sake. I beg you, please?

When you're down, you turn me down too(which you might not aware of). When I'm down and I feel that you isolated me or maybe you need some personal space, I just had to get a little bit angry and emo. How? very easy, since you ain't talking to me, why should I?

I am not able to carry on due to some incidence...take care readers.bye

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

一巴

过了十二点,冷战就满一星期。
一星期又一星期。。我看把所有时间凑起来都会多过我睡觉的时间。

这一巴, 是在没有经过大脑之前扫的巴。多手咯!在人家光滑的脸上赐了两巴。第一次是在醉醉的情况下,第二次嘛,也许靠得太近了,忍不住拍了下去!

我当让没有那个特权来扫你啊!但人家又不是故意的。兜来兜去,还不是不敢承认是自己的错。为自己找借口说什么一定是之前也被人扫过,所以非常厌恶在扫过他的人(我)。但,真的,我不是第一个哦!(他说的)
他:如果你给我扫回一巴,我就原谅你!
我(心里想):其实我心里很乱 。。

这两巴,你刻骨铭心。
但我为你付出的,关心过你的,又不见你记得那么清楚!
看来一次的不对,就以足够让你抹掉我对你的好。很好!!!

谁最笨? 是我.
谁多管闲事?是我.
谁自作多情?是我.
谁小气?是你.
谁大男人?是你.
谁犯了错? 是我和你.
本来就不应该出现在对方的世界里...开心时,你是最棒的! 闹性子时,曾有多少个'算了'浮现在脑海里.忘了争吵了几次,为了什么原因.也不知挽救了几次,说了多少个对不起...

也许,这次真的该算了 ,让时间冲淡心中的不满,然后再慢慢从脑袋里抹掉我..
不想问自己到底想怎样,良心过意得去没有,将来会后悔吗?我只知道, 我累了.脸皮再也不够厚了..

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Movies?

Hmm, me iz weird -.- suddenly have an urge to catch a movie, but perhaps the urge already expired, only last for yesterday..lol weird again xP
So currently, there's some movie screening and have good response from movie-goers..Let's check out their trailer~~          

                                                  Do you like horror, thriller movie? let's scream out loud! -Scream4


How about cartoon? -RIO

Adam sandler..lol funny guy -.- -Just go with It 

Vanessa Hudgen.reminds me of Beast -Sucker Punch

lol 鬼也笑
   Hmm, enough with the movies..
How about some MV?

                                                           Keri Hilson-Pretty girl rocks
                                                    
  *so i don't rock lol*

You set it again my heart in motion every word feels like a shooting star~~ =(


no no  no no...oh oh oh oh~

you're amazing just the way you are <3

we have 'last night'~

                                                            
                                                             Good Life is what I want..current favourite

Ooooo~~~ why the hell I post so many~~ got nothing better to do mie~~ lol~~~
-HW-
<3 music ; but a musical instrument noob ;<

PC Fair

Paid a visit to the PC Fair at KLCC .. nothing much for a teenager like me to look around as I don't need those appliances,yet. Just feel like hanging around with friends rather than head back to home after tuition classes..

As usual, it's crowded with humans. 
Every single booth has their own models to promote or I should say 'lure' customers to have a look at their products..
Hmm, the way those models dressed up- super short skirts , glitters all over them and of course, heavy make up~ This have made them become the centre of attraction for people to capture their photos using DSLR...
I saw a lot of recycling bins being placed at every corner of the halls and out of boredom I only captured one of them.I mean, where got people so psycho go and capture photos of Recycling Bins? 
haha, yaya..I'm the psycho girl XD
which one do you belong to? xD




After my friend has settled with her things, which was buying a memory card for her camera.We passed through all the hall in order to go to the exit and headed to Avenue K to fill our stomach.
I ordered black pepper chicken chop with egg. and, the egg seems so fake to me!
haha, maybe I'm over sensitive with it? but, check out the photo below..
perfect egg yolk, nice timing huh chef? lol
After a not-so-satisfying meal for me, we went back home while sighing tomorrow's a schooling day ;<

-HW-
You can lie to others, but you can never lie to yourself

Saturday, April 16, 2011

ReliEf

Oh hell yeah! The MUET examination has officially came to an end.! =)
We have sat for the Speaking paper on last Saturday, therefore, we were only there in school to conquer another 3 papers which are Writing, Reading and Listening.

The sky, turned from agouti(lol) to creepy black sky,knowing it's going to rain soon.
As expected, while doing one of the paper(either reading or writing which I already forgot), rain droplets hit the Earth. Thunder roared. The fresh and cooling air somehow didn't calm me down =/
In fact, I almost running out of time while doing the Writing paper.
The question was so random till an extent that I didn't know what else I can write. It was pertaining to friendship.

Ha~! Perhaps it isn't the pertinent moment for me to write about friendship ;< I myself know the reason, hopefully the one outside there able to fare-well.
Does the MPM has no better question for the candidates? And I bet my tutor will have his jaw dropped after knowing this were the kind of question we were tested on.
This is because previously my tutor has forecasted some more concerning issues such as environment issues, unemployment and Science&Technology as well as 1 Malaysia.Unfortunately, none of them came out, neither in Speaking Paper nor Writing paper. It's quite a disappointment for me actually as I'm more into writing factual essay rather than opinion-based essay.
However, something I need to admit that whatever topic I got for this exam, which were life partner and friendship, related to my current situation now. = = So, I'm like, 'what the?'

The rain hasn't stopped.....

Right after the examination has ended, I went to 'visit' my young, resilient seeds which we've planted them on the 30th March  xD
I shifted them from the grass floor onto the ground so rain water will never accumulate inside and cause unnecessary damage to the roots and make the plants die.
I just can't wait any longer to see them yield their own fruits~! Of course, I'll take on the responsibility to water them regularly without fail. =)
the young plant of.............PUMPKIN!!

Hello :)


There goes MUET, here come other examinations from other subjects. -sigh-
Although most, if not all of us are aware of the importance of examinations, yet we tend to procrastinate, don't we? urghh.. come on, who wants to become a pedant? But we have hobson's choice as we've chose to walk down this path, a F6 pathway -.-" Aiya, it isn't that scary like what we thought(all iz well). All we need is just put in a LITTLE more effort + IGNORANCE on the entertainment(nooo wayyyy) .

*yawn~ what a nice afternoon to take a siesta, but I didn't. what a suitable time to do revision, but I delayed it by blogging here =p  what a relaxing moment to text your friend, but I've lost *it..
most valuable thing in life? I'll say it's friendship and relationship ..all the ships in my life are never allow to be sank, but, they did. It's not an easy task nor an uphill task to maintain that ship, but somehow we all may lose it due to lack of contribution from both side..This does not only apply in relationship, but also friendship,seriously......

Hmm,..that's all for today~~~ rain has completely stopped too....

-HW-
Over is over; tomorrow's a miracle 

Sunday, April 10, 2011

StrAngUlatiOn

Help~ Help~~~!
I saw a lot of examinations have already queuing up behind me, not even a picometer gap in between them..
Leave Me Alone~~~~!!!

Oh crap, MUET is going to bring about death to me tomorrow..*hopefully my corpse will still in whole condition* :p
Nothing much, it's just speaking. YA SPEAKING! just like how I always open my mouth and speak..well, that's talk, not speak. 'Talking and eloquence are not the same: to speak and to speak well are two things. A fool may talk, but a wise man speaks"-Heinrich Heine- oouu, does that mean Imma fool? :D
Tomorrow morning, 730am sharp, the formal group will break the dawn..lulz

Predicaments that I might face during the exam will be : having difficulties to construct perfect,flawless english sentences ; use a lot of vocab fillers like 'erm, uhm,hmmmm' ; and point-less , as in very little point to talk about >.<"
hopefully the task tomorrow will be something easy to talk on, something that allow me to throw in few variety of words~~ Hmm, let's have minor preliminary test here :p *answers are provided at the bottom of the post*

Prevent -
Important-
Stop-
Problems-
Nurture-

Pray hard that I won't become dumb tomorrow =X


Apart from MUET,  thing that I enjoyed most in school (after school hour) will be playing basketball., mostly is on wednesday due to the more suitable attire.
Playing basketball make me sweat profusely >< Eventhough it's tiring, but the fun and the laughter I make totally cover up the 'stress' and boredom I had during class early morning... :p (maths especially!!)

AAAHHH!!  i couldn't continue further on this post due to some circumstances...Sooo... BRB in time to come....those answer...errr...google it baaaa!! sayonara!! <3

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

REd Riding Hood of THE dAY

Date: 31st Jan 2011
Time: 11am-8pm
Red riding hood(female): Me,swerlie,sooyee,elaine,yunsun
                        (male??):Sean,Kaiyung,junyao,hanjo,weilun,xinliang,'zhang zhi cheng'.co-starring:bear.
Venue:Heart of the city
Theme: RED+BLACK or either one

Before setting our foot to the month of February, we had an awesome+stunning outing with all of us wearing sharp red apparel in conjunction with CNY =)
We kicked off the day by torturing our throat in k box, high pitch song was represented by MariahCarey's Without You, while low pitch songs...errr...a lot xD

Next, we made our purse bleed by awarding ourselves with some clothing, sunglasses and bag...
But still, the most abundant of items we had were photos!~ Photos captured that used up/exhausted my lovely reddy camera -.-
(from left)swer,yunsun,elaine,sooyee

LALALALAA



ky and sean 

fulala


<3

gangsta ;<



GONG HEI GONG HEI!

pRO angle xD

reli nthg to do -..-












the day was still not a perfect one,for me......

Sunday, January 30, 2011

伪装

事情已过了一个星期+ 一天,但仿佛只是昨天才发生..

一个不够充分的理由,没有原因而分开的原因,为两人画上了句点..这只是暂时,或是永远?

心中除了有一拳头的愤怒,一桶的悲哀与伤感,当然也有很多疑问...

那些疑问,仿佛已被我看穿,可以说在事发之前已经困扰着我了.只是,它们只默默地在我心中的某一个深处,不停打滚,逼我问个究竟,我,没做到...只是, 聪明的我,一个人做了最坏的打算..

就在那一夜,你对我说, :不如暂时分开..我手在颤抖..心很痛...

那时的我,可以对他说我不要吗?我可以拒绝你的要求吗?但,我没得选择, 不是吗?

就在那一刻,我狠狠地下了决定,不要和你讲话!更不用说有眼神的接触!

分开之后的第一天, 你我无言相对,计划成功..但心里很痛..加上你不以为然,更让我对你恨之入骨!

第二天,有少许免不了的沟通.心里有一股说了就拍拍屁股走人的冲动..计划半成功..

你说你从我的眼神知道我讨厌你,那你知道就好啊!
心情,总算平浮了一些, 就只有那么一些些..

在这之前,我拒绝过你,因为我就是害怕会有这么一天:腻了?热情往往会减退,对不对?

我可以老实告诉你,我还没抹去你...但谁会在乎在一起傻傻说过的那些话..

也许,你现在身边已有她人,而我想我也清楚那会是谁..

我真的希望,在前面的路口,有一个U转,能转回你的心....

Sunday, January 2, 2011

The Last nOte

Oh man~! 2010 has already ended,which means school-goers have to resume their same routine
(fall back into the same patterns same routine*eminem*)

Talking about what I've done within this long holidays,it's an endless story(is it?).
But went to karaoke box topped my activity list.haha! I went for 4 times if not mistaken :D
I procrastinated a lot ;<  can't help it larrh~~

Anyway,tomorrow's the day~ to go back to school,clean the class is the 1st thing to do ;<

Then, participate in school activities..

Next, WAIT FOR PUBLIC HOLIDAY!! Haha!!^.^v