Ah Swer's 19

It's my bestie's birthday today!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWER!! ^^
Me and soo yee are going to celebrate her bday just by having a dinner at Little Taiwan in KLCC...
we spent about 1 and a half hour there chatting,planning for what to do after exam,laughed together...it's really relaxing and it again strengthen our friendship bonds. :)
Just can;t wait for exam to finish and have our day being turn upside down! >.<

Indecisive

Indecisive kills.......
In terms of relationship, it is not as easy as making columns, writing pro's and con's, then value which has more point and go accord with it...
It is when you are at the pro's column, you think of the con's ; at con's ,you think of the pro's....
in short, you cannot make decision..you neither want to let go nor maintain.....
And again, I've made a firm decision-to get together again :)
I will put down all the shortcomisus of him..no one can be perfect,flawless....:)
I couldn't remember how many times have I told myself during cold war that this have to be the last war between us, no more hatred,belief more..but, the turn out always break my heart.....
I don't say I couldn't live without him..but he has already became part of my life, my soul...without him, I am like an unsolved puzzle,incomplete..can never know the final picture,the ending it brings...
It will be a brand new day tomorrow...be tough, be positive, be yourself......

不哭

浓浓的眉毛，有时双有时单眼皮的眼睛，不会很高可是恰好的鼻梁，不会干算是小的嘴巴。。

今天只能侧面地，无意地瞄了你。。。

我们在一起做过的事实在太多了。。拥有太多共同点。因为这些共同点连写文章也会写出同样的要点。。。

在班要把你当透明，很难且难受。。

今天只跟你说了声谢谢。。

我们，变陌生人了么？

试问，有多少人在分开以后，可以继续当朋友？不用说朋友，讲话的机会有吗？。。。

不是我自恋，我真的认为我是一个很好的女朋友。。好在哪里呢，就是肯为某某付出很多。。

以为今天可以度过在一起的第五个月。。。。梦里就有可能。。。。

现在我只想读好书考好成绩。。至于之间的过程会有什么变化，我不知道。。。。

will you be this boyfriend?

If only everyone could see
this and understand it.
When she stares at your
mouth
-Kiss her
When she pushes you or
hits you like a dummy
cause she thinks shes
stronger than you
-Grab her and don't let go
When she starts cursing
at you trying to act all
tough
-Kiss her and tell her you
love her
When she's quiet
-Ask her whats wrong
When she ignores you
-Give her your attention
When she pulls away
-Pull her back
When you see her at her
worst
-Tell her she's beautiful
When you see her start
crying
-Just hold her and don't
say a word
When you see her walking
-Sneak up and hug her
waist from behind
When she's scared
-Protect her
When she steals your
favorite hoodie
-Let her keep it and sleep
with it for a night
When she teases you
-Tease her back and make
her laugh
When she doesn't answer
for a long time
-Reassure her that
everything is okay
When she looks at you
with doubt
-Back yourself up
When she says that she
loves you
-she really does more than
you can understand
When she grabs at your
hands
-Hold her's and play with
her fingers
When she bumps into you
-Bump into her back and
make her laugh
When she tells you a
secret
-Keep it safe and untold
When she looks at you in
your eyes
-dont look away until she
does
When she says it's over
-she still wants you to be
hers
When she reposts this
bulletin
-she wants you to read it
- Stay on the phone with
her even if she's not
saying anything
- When she's mad hug her
tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok
don't believe it, talk with
her because 10 yrs later
she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on
her birthday to tell her
you love her
- Treat her like she's all
that matters to you
- Stay up all night with her
when she's sick
- Watch her favorite
movie with her or her
favorite show even if you
think it's stupid
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your
clothes
-When she's bored and
sad, hang out with her
-Let her know she's
important.
- Kiss her in the pouring
rain
- When she runs up to you
crying, the first thing you
say is:
"Whose ass am i
kicking,BABY?"


If only he could read this . . . 

。为什么这爱总是拼凑不起来。

“分开“这两个字眼，

又出现了。

两天前的我们，无言相对。

安静得陌生。。

虽然分开是你先提出，可是做决定的人竟是我。

我变成坏人了吗？

呵~

我真的不知道到底想怎样！

我让你又爱又恨，

你也一样！

我很想弄清楚，我们之间的感觉，是怎样的。。

而我所作的决定，对么？

不曾真正走过爱情路的我，很迷惑。

身边的伴侣，是因为爱而在一起，还是只是一时的错觉?

想占有你，因为和你在一起真的很难得；有时想放弃，因为你的忽冷，令我觉得迷惑和猜疑。

很想与你走在路上时，不时对望，有说笑。。

很想在情人节，纪念日时继续送你礼物，

话说回来，我还没收到你的花。。。。

怎么办怎么办怎么办！！

要做决定时不断地想，作了决定后还是在想！

我到底顾虑着什么？还是我舍不得什么？

现在的我，有想挽回的念头。

可是，

接下来的日子，该怎样相对？

亲密还会比陌生多吗？

我们要怎样才能再靠近一点。。。

先提出分手的人，是不是一定不会落泪？挣扎较少？不会后悔？

如果有如果，我该怎么好好利用这如果。。。

wednes the day ~.~

*shivering* what a cold evening >.<

HOw was my day today? Hmm..practically, it's quite stressful but playful..
Early in the morning I sat for some minor Bio test where teacher will include it as part of the trial exam-.-
I think she's running out of question..recycled the question and asked again the same linked gene question.How boringggg ;< I was hoping some nervous system or immunity question instead..

*wow so bitter! *biting cucumber* >.<

Going quite well with my darling :p no cold war,so far -.- I love him more as day goes by...*missing him* :(

Went back home, bathed and ready to watch Johnny English 1..hilarious rowan atkinson -,-
my dad was teasing: mr bean can speak de mie? >.<

Hmm, gonna watch HK drama in another err 40 minutes....then, I hope I'll stick my arse on the chair flipping through maths....I got a SHITTY result for maths!! ***k! so far, it's the SHITTIEST as I haven't know my chem marks...Am so dead! how do I get 4.0 in real exam????????????? I know I need to put more effort on that subject..I promise I'll try my best, but, not every single question I am able to tackle..aite??
 *emo*

miserably x.x

God knows what happen to me today during muet speaking test..

I can barely utter a complete sentence..

the topic was damn easy but, somewhere went wrong with me,I failed to do my very best, and i surely know that

disappointment? hell yeah..frustration,more..

perhaps not speaking the language in daily life does harm me alot..it affect my fluency,confidence..

taskA I only managed to get 10m for each category..10..ftw t('.'t)

I did better during task B...but so what? that's not gonna bring me any further to whatever band i''ll get.

I just hope that this will not greatly affect my overall performance in order to determine which actual band I am.

pray hard I can do better in the real test.

teacher said she expected more from me..glad to hear that as it means I do have the ability;but sorry to say I wasn't in the right mode then,at least for today..

After my group, I sat down and wrote an essay pertaining to the topic being discussed just now..

I can write,but when come to oratorical skill, I stammer...

Sometimes I wonder, why am I not born from a family who speak well in english especially...

therefore, I aimed to boom my future offspring with english first,mandarin 2nd..hohoho= ="

remuk jantungku~

addicted to the songs by Geisha, an Indonesian singer x)

#1 cinta&benci

#2 Tak pernah ada

#3 remuk jantungku

#4 pilihan hatiku

come on~~

Yeahhh~!

It's already the 4th day of my trial exam ._.

Papers..were quite moderate..I can actually score if I put my heart&soul..but, did I ? :D

tomorrow is Biology._. another stressful subject..

Felt diffident when answering PA paper just now..

The only section which I think I can score is drawing the line graph -.-

Essays topic were kinda nuub =.=

anyway,that was afternoon's story..

Time to get my butt stick on the chair and flip open my bio books :(

hope the question are not too kek sau :p